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Before we begin, you should know this about me:
I have a GIANT Chaos Star tattooed on my back. My tattoo artist Stephanie Tamez, having great integrity, actually tried to talk me out of it. “Most people save their backpiece for when they’re older,” she explained. “And these are thick black lines, which can’t be covered up like other tattoos can. Are you sure you want to go through with this?”
I told her I was certain. I had been carefully planning this tattoo for years. It wasn’t just a tattoo of a cool shape. In fact, I would tell my friends, “I’m getting a Self-Portrait tattooed on my back.”
Mysteriously, at age 13, I had begun receiving an ongoing stream of psychic in-sights about CHAOS THEORY (the basics of which will be explained in this post). Without needing to read a single word about Chaos, I just knew what it was. How it worked, the ins and outs, the mechanics of it all… and its vast spiritual implications.
Chaos Theory was never just a mathematical concept to me. It was always, always a wellspring of profound Universal Truths. I came to feel as though I AM Chaos incarnate (hence the “Self-Portrait” joke). To tattoo a Chaos Star would be a commitment to embody the principles of Chaos and en-Courage others to do the same.
When I designed the tattoo, I took great care to include Chaotic principles in the design itself. For example, I made the arrowheads V-shaped so that the arrowheads visually “pointed back” to the center, suggesting that the energy that leaves the center always comes back to begin again.
Lo and behold, at age 27 (6 years after getting the tattoo), I learned that in Vedic astrology, my Sun is in a subsection of Cancer called Punarvasu Nakshatra. Punarvasu’s symbol is a quiver of arrows.
The most accepted symbol of Punarvasu is a ‘quiver full of arrows’…. An arrow has been traditionally associated with every aspect of human nature and functioning — arrow of desire, arrow of ambition, Eros’ arrow, and not to forget the arrow of time. In all these cases the arrow is always associated with some sort of movement, striving or objective.
The arrows in the Punarvasu quiver are not normal arrows. They are supposed to be like the divine astras (weapons), used in ancient times, which magically return after fulfilling their function or mission. This conveys the idea of renewal, regeneration and endless beginnings.– from “The Book of Naksatras” by Prash Trivedi
Another fun fact: Nikola Tesla, one of the most widely-known proponents of Free Energy (a Chaotic function) was a Punarvasu Sun.
Finally, after 14 years of faithfully studying Chaos, here it was: validation that I had, indeed, intuited my unique essence, my personal Gnosis, in order to learn the Truth.
So if you’re wondering who I am to give you information about Chaos Theory: I’m Chaos Practice. This isn’t dogma. The Gnosis to follow is all Sourced from within my Self, and you may hold me fully accountable for it.
What is Chaos Theory?
Let’s look at a few definitions:
[Chaos Theory is] the branch of mathematics that deals with complex systems whose behavior is highly sensitive to slight changes in conditions, so that small alterations can give rise to strikingly great consequences.Oxford
Chaos theory describes the qualities of the point at which stability moves to instability or order moves to disorder. For example, unlike the behavior of a pendulum, which adheres to a predictable pattern, a chaotic system does not settle into a predictable pattern due to its nonlinear processes.ScienceDirect
In summary: Chaos is the bridge from a linear system to a non-linear system.
You might call the planetary orbits a linear system, because the movement of the planets is completely predictable: the same yesterday, today, and presumably forever (unless an unpredictable agent like an asteroid comes in and knocks them out of orbit — keep this in mind, we’ll be exploring Chaotic “pattern-disruptors” later).
By contrast, weather is a good example of a non-linear system. The degree of accuracy with which we can predict the weather decreases the further we project our predictions into the future. A cloudy, humid atmosphere most likely means there will be rain within the day. But in the next few days? Weeks? Months? As more time progresses, our predictions about the weather transition from evidence-based assessments to mere guesswork.
This is because in a non-linear/dynamic system, Potential is always available. As the system progresses, the Potential comes with it. (Think of the “magical quiver of arrows” mentioned at the beginning of this essay.) A predictable pattern can be broken. A limit can be un-limited.
Real quick definition for this post: Potential is Possibility. It’s the undifferentiated substance that creates reality. It’s the could-be-anything energy that precedes all forms and experiences!
Here’s an illustrated guide, based on a vision I had. Let’s say in a dynamic system, the initial conditions were such that the path of Potential favored the Left direction, like so:
At the next phase, the Potential slightly shifts to the Right.
At the following nexus, the Potential shifts once again to the Right.
Relative to the most recent step on the path, it’s only a slight shift. But relative to the Beginning, it’s a major shift!
No matter how far you’ve gone down any path, you can always change paths. Your Potential is always with you, even if you’re so far from the Beginning that you forgot where you started. That’s because The Beginning is not a single fixed point in TimeSpace. Rather, The Beginning is in every moment, in every place. The Beginning is in You.
Taking this a step further: Energy can go backwards, too. In a Chaotic System / Open Circuit, there’s no law forcing forward-moving energy to continue moving forward. That means even Time itself can be reversed and rewritten, and Space can be warped and reshaped, if one knows how to tap into the Free Energy made possible by Chaos.
Indeed, Free Energy is the mechanism behind all so-called “superpowers” such as time travel, miraculous healing, teleportation, claircognizance, shapeshifting, immortality, and all the other psychic & psionic abilities that humans can Potentially develop.
So let’s look at how Chaos Theory applies to the most dynamic system of all: The Human Be-ing.
The Human Be[com]ing
As a Consciousness Be-ing who has chosen to exist in a Closed Circuit material realm, you are a dense thoughtform whose shape, size, age and sex are all determined and maintained by a complex web of beliefs.
Again, beliefs aren’t just some wispy vapor that exclusively exist inside your head. Thoughts are a substance. To harken back to Part 2: A dog and a daydream are made of the same stuff.
Humans like to make all sorts of appeals to the material realm to explain why we are The Way We Are. It’s especially popular to appeal to genetics to explain one’s physical attributes, including illnesses.
However, it’s scientifically well-established by now that even DNA isn’t written in stone. Gene expression is influenced by thoughts. (To learn more about epigenetics, I recommend the work of Joe Dispenza, which I have greatly benefited from.)
The Placebo Effect is perhaps our greatest hint that healing can be instigated by “Mind over Matter.” If you believe you’re healing, you heal – regardless of what external medicine you may be taking.
We can heal ourselves using thoughts alone… and conversely, we can make ourselves sick with thoughts alone. The more the thought is densified by repetition and repression (for example in the case of PTSD flashbacks), the more it expresses itself in the body. (Dr Gabor Mate is a great resource on the link between how unpleasant memories manifest as sickness.)
“Inheriting” a disease like substance addiction or diabetes from your family, isn’t a material inheritance. It’s a consciousness inheritance, encoded into your genes, just like how an idea is expressed in a book. And the good news is, as long as you can think, you can rewrite the book.
So knowing that thoughts are the basis of what we physically experience, let’s draw this out to its extreme logical conclusion:
Even in the case of “genetically inherited” features like eye color and skin tone, all you’ve really “inherited” is a loooooong, LONG chain of your ancestors’ densified thoughtforms.
Un-believing all their thoughts, in order to shift the momentum of your Potential towards a different path so that you may shapeshift into a new physical form, is not often seen.
But it is possible.
And you want to know Why you never see people shapeshifting?
Because people believe they can’t.
That’s the whole reason why.
People believe in their physical limitations so fervently, that the Limit gets carved into their physical form, into their behavioral patterns, and into their DNA, which gets passed on to their children, and their children, and their children… ad nauseum.
Most people will never explore the Possibilities of Human Potential, because Most People have inherited Beliefs about why humans “should be” be Limited, in addition to the beliefs that gave them material Limits in the first place.
- “Humans can’t fly, only creatures with physical wings can fly!”
- “Humans can’t fly, it’s impossible according to the Laws of Physics!”
- “Humans can’t fly, that’s not in the Bible so it’s a sin!”
^ The Bible one is especially interesting to me, because Jesus Christ was Free Energy embodied. In fact, I think his whole message was Free Energy, so it astounds me how “Christians” completely and utterly missed his invitation:
Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.John 14:12 NIV
This ^ coming from a Being who phase-shifted water into wine, walked on water like it was solid, and came back to life after fully bleeding out. Talk about a master of Free Energy!!!
But let’s put that aside for now. I’ll elaborate on “Jesus as Free Energy Emissary” in a future post.
As a Conscious Human Be-ing, you have Free Energy at your command.
How do you access Free Energy?
With your FREE WILL.
All the material world is, is a realm that favors patterns. Its Closed Circuit provides a simple, predictable pathway for energy. So energy tends to flow along the Closed Circuit.
People tend to behave the same way they’ve always behaved. People tend to think the way they’ve always thought. The pathway of their Potential is deeply carved, like an ancient river that has worn away at rocks over ages, or like the deep groove of a neuropathway that makes thoughts automatic.
But introduce Potential-generating Chaos into an Ordered System, and the pattern is disrupted — setting the Energy Free to choose a new path, a new pattern, a new power.
Thus, if you want to change something, you must consciously choose to surrender all associated patterns, limits and closed circuits… to Create something New.
Before moving on to the next Part, let’s get on the same wavelength. Here’s a word-cloud of concepts associated with Chaos. Read each word slowly before moving on to the next, so it makes an impression on your heart:
To recap, the qualities of Free Energy are as follows:
- Free Energy is infinite (surpassing Comprehension).
- Free Energy can be accessed from any-Where, and cannot be contained (surpassing Space).
- Free Energy can be accessed at any Time, and is never-ending (surpassing Time).
Put more simply:
For this reason, you might call Free Energy “God” or “Goddess” (though both would be ironic, considering that an Unlimited Force cannot even be contained by a word, least of all a sex-limited one. But I digress!)
In the next post, I’ll provide Practical Instructions for how to begin tapping into Free Energy… which means I’m going to give you CHAOS MAGICK LESSONS!!! Woooooo! 😍
Thanks for reading this far!